And so it goes

So here I am in November and again I'm wondering where the time has gone. But I can account for all the days and weeks because some of the events are forever burned into my memory.

It's been a wild ride since the end of September when my last contract ended. I've had interviews that turned into nothing and responses that I'm still waiting for. I've also been the unlucky recipient of a headhunters inability to inform me about a position that was already filled (as I waited for the interview to start). $$##!!@@@!#

Thanksgiving was a total disaster. Think Jerry Springer meets Judge Judy.

And soon Christmas will be upon us. That magical time of year for some. The last time I liked Christmas was when I was eight. No matter how hard I try I can't seem to erase the ghosts of Christmas' past. The pressure to be happy and at peace is overwhelming and I have a very hard time trying to fake it. Very few of us are lucky enough to have a Norman Rockwell type scene play out for us.

Regardless, I have to believe that my situation will improve and I will find work soon. One thing that's different this time around is that I told myself I wasn't going to stress myself out and worry like an obsessed person. It's more important for my health than ever that I try and keep on an even keel.

Here's hoping.